waiting
turning corners
flowing ranges that were previously impossible( improbable)
excusable reasons of disorienting relational diaspora.
What kind of world is in me when I numbly do what I mostly am attempting to stand against?
How to change my focus to what I am to stand for
letting the slips slide and the glories climb
that my whole may be sanctified to heal the lives and sight of those caught in the similar self drifting darkness.
on sunday I caught up with Jeff Eaton and we went to a free show on the east river. I had heard of but never heard the Dirty Projectors… mainly because most of the newer indie music im just not into.… enter a big exception.
1. Grooves like west African pop music
2. They at one point have a Nirvana-esque breakdown
3. There were a few songs that I just totally got lost dancing to…twas wonderful.
Captive ruins
posture filled to the brim with the noise of latent abilities atrophy(occupation of soul)
stillness setting in empty songs of preparatory emancipation(excavation of soul)
igniting the senses
enlightening awareness
(filling of soul)
mysterious beyond drawing out monolith and metaphor with eternal repercussions
(overflow of soul)
It started out with a lot of fog… then the vibrations started… first my feet… then my chest… i was frozen in the loudest ambient tidal pool ever… and then the fog started to clear and we could make out the wraithlike cloaks behind the mask of green cloud. in a grand opus between throat singing, the tides of distortion, and the pulsation of my body by an ohm of great magnitude… i fell to love and appreciate the metal that is known as sunnO)).
I cannot say why because I do not know.
Conscious without words.
Moving and glowing present.
Spiraling past
Kinetic force of the future and it’s potential gravitation
Directions curvature
Leaping.
ego slain empty cup
filled by the brewed crushed fruit of the soil
with a nurtured froth swirling the image of the makers eddy.
take.
drink.
green. (my friend amy modelling for spool)
the simplest joy of seeing new vastness surrounding valleys from vistas.
the speed of innocent intuition seeing emptiness as space in contrast to the present experience.
the shear wealth of care even though haphazard and clumsy at times, holding the heart as precious and with a grip on flesh keeping the free spirit from flying off a cliff or landing upsidedown on the ground.
a priceless gamble of faith.
a helpless act of desparation.
best one knows.
the flaws growing up to be unique beauty and strength, unaware of memories weight.
the nature of change.
impercievable provision.
hodgepodge account of respnsibility.
the call that sparks screaming trees to burst from hands and feet and throws lightening shock vision to eyes, raw with emotion, and untrained in the way to cope with the world.
walk on water.
spin the weather in your palm to soothe the sight of stars.
wrestle the angel.
my shield, my crest, my cup, my creed is love.
all my art is up. a few final details and voila.
then the swell of first fridays will rise… fall into the night… i will get up and speak the next day and then man the other gallery during the fashion show maddness. then i will take my rest.
Thankyou to all who came to the opening on First Friday and made it a wonderful evening!
I will be down at the gallery most afternoons… (wed-sat) give me some heads up if you are planning on coming down and ill make sure to be there. 8168766013.
Title: The Journey of Home
Artist: John Raux
Gallery: Beggar’s Table (2009 Baltimore)
Opening: May 1st (open through June 26th)
Hours: 6pm — 10pm Opening night,
wed/thur/fri 11 – 4, sat by appointment(call 816.500.0820)
Description: Continuing on from a walk in the mountains(Pacific Crest Trail 2007), John Raux’s been painting in response to his journey in Kansas City, and the last year of his life. The show includes 20 oil paintings that are all 16×24 inches (in contrast to the 11ft pieces a year ago at the Bad Seed). The installation will also include writing and reflections on our relationships with home, speed, and the systems of city life. At the opening, local songwriter David Bennett will perform on the back patio and will be followed by a dance party.
My first week in Portland and Seattle has been wonderful. Naco’s naan tacos! Biker and hiker cultures are so refreshing.… Not to mention I’m getting tons of exercise exploring the town. Going to hike tomorrow and then see banana get hitched! Yeehaw.
Im finished painting… the day before I leave for the west coast! Set up the show on 1st friday in May at Beggars Table Gallery(2009 Baltimore). calling it “The Journey of Home”. should be good. Im going to finish the writing for it while im away. slowly but surely the steps towards Nepal edge closer.
moving mountains
seems like ages ago that i was out in salt lake with gramicci…
in the pasaydens caught in 5 ft of snow on the PCT…
dreaming about going to Nepal and Northern India.
listening to the toes ive stepped on makes me want to stop dancing.
critiqued by my lonely road.
the direction of the current should not be the sole judge of destination…
and fighting the current should not be the sole reason for choosing a direction.
the love of mountains shows its greatest contrast in deep valleys.
against my “better” judgement, its in the desert where there is rest.
a cosmic clock of inspiration pours itself out when we have time and have made space.
loosing sight of surroundings we give way to visions cast in the dance that our hearts have already chosen.
my etsy is pretty much down… minus a few pieces. I will however be putting up a new store in the coming months…along with a website that actually presents my artwork and endeavors. speaking of.… Im officially planning a trip to Nepal in July! My hope is to get a scholarly visa and to study the intersection of culture and spirituality in the art and food of the indigenous mountain peoples… and also those caught up in the crossroads… tell their stories, synthesize my own story, make new friends and art. whew.
so sometime(im working on it) i plan to show my new paintings (which are all 16×20) and also have a benefit show… with the work from etsy and many other old or just unseen projects to fund the journey to Nepal.
A couple months of Facebook philosophy
In the status update box on Facebook reads “whats on your mind”. So I committed to speaking my mind for the few months I had left before my travel to Asia. These are the posts that came out during that period.
John Raux thinks more monks should be ninjas(or at least know kung fu). contemplative and physical health flourish when pushed to rigorous ends. the great challenge to make peace without murder is exemplified by creativity, physical activity and prayer…. min us the throwing stars. save those for the renn fest.
September 20 at 2:15am
Plan like the wind, commit like an animal, connect like a tree, vow like a mountain,love like the ocean tide… swelling by the gravity of another.
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